The Sims

I have resorted to creating my fantasy characters on the sims. I do not find this weird in any way. I find it easier to visualise them in the real world. It helps a lot. I've done it before but never kept it up and never found the time go on in. It's not like I have lot of time on my hands now but I was really in the mood to tonight. And I had fun, and I may do some more tomorrow night. It's weird what I have going on... but that's just me, weird. I wanna keep a log of the people to so I know who they are and what world they belong to. That also sounds weird, but again, that's just me. It makes me feel organised and I know what's going on, and I like it. I'm also on sim city sometimes playing out cities. I think that's great, I haven't been on it in a while but wanna check what my cities look like. The screen shots never worked on it... I think I need to take a picture on my phone and email myself. That's the way around it. I am also going to use this blog more, I'm always on and off, but I really wanna try and use it.

Back to Normal

Things are getting back to normal for me now. Had a nice long lie in this morning, felt great when I got up. Took a trip out this afternoon for shopping for the grandparents, but I didn't have lunch til 4 o clock. The big disadvantage of the day. Doesn't matter now though, had a great Sunday dinner and chilling watching Family Guy. I looked at my daydreams from 2 years ago on this day and took last years. I wasn't in the mood for 2010... but dealing drugs in the fantasy world, just like old times. I'm gonna get back in the rhythm for it now. I'm just glad I've got no more work for this year... still need to find a placement. But that's it, I'm sure I'll find one. 

Successful Day

Today was a successful day. I felt really good all day. On the till at work. I usually hate it, but not today. Saturday is always the busiest day. A rush of customers and queue's sometimes. It was really good, and enjoyable. No time for daydreaming. I kept giving myself things to do so I didn't get bored. Then... 5 came and the shop kept open. I went crazy trying to find things to buy.. that was the fun part, then spent 15 quid on things. Even crazier, but all for charity. Then, stopped back, helped cash up and hoover the shop. Got home, and felt like I'd achieved something. Then... of course.. daydreaming as soon as I got in my room. Some time for myself, just how I enjoy it. I want more days like this, I was out the house for most of it and got up early. Gonna have a nice old lie in tomorrow. 

Breaking Point

Today, I was at breaking point. I went to work after uni this morning to hand in my final essay and ended up being on the til. I hated every minute of it. I will not play into these mind games. The daydreaming didn't help at all. I just wanted to get out. The customers were okay and I didn't have to deal with any angry ones, which was good. So just before 4, I told my manager I had to go, which was half the truth, and left. And I was the only volunteer left at that time. Thank God I left as well, otherwise I would have said something which I wouldn't regret. The rain had dyed down when I left and I took a mini road trip to clear my head. I had my music blasting out the speakers, and I loved it. I got home and felt a lot better. And I feel great right now. No daydreaming tonight, just relaxation. And up and early for work tomorrow, don't have to worry about a certain person. Which is good. So, I'm gonna walk in with a smile on my face tomorrow. 

Fantasy

Back to daydreaming now. And blogging. Just me and my thoughts on this blog. And I'm gonna blog a hell lot more on this one. This blog means a lot to me. I have been daydreaming a lot, even though I had a lot of work to do it didn't stop me. Nothing usually does. I daydream to sleep at night when I cant sleep. That's getting rare now, I watch TV now, so I don't really daydream that much before bed. The car journeys help quite a lot. Especially the music, its getting more inspirational, and a new CD for my car, just made me happier. Tomorrow I'm getting my laptop back so its going to start getting better now. Gonna clean the laptop to make it faster then I'll be good. I'm excited to back to my old ways tomorrow now. I can't wait. 

Football Matches

Today has consisted a lot of football. I was looking forward to the Sunderland match and then after was dying to go on fifa. There was no time for daydreaming. I was focusing on the match to much. But I know tonight I will be back in my fantasy world doing what I do best. But, its going to be early as I've got to get up at 7 for uni. That's the one thing I hate. I usually rush things and end up doing something stupid which I will probably regret. So since the Internet is working I will plan ahead so I won't have to make any mistakes. Whereas tomorrow I'll probably get bored in my lecture and I will end up daydreaming. That's just typical me really. 9-6 tomorrow... somehow I am not really looking forward to it. But I will look forward to tomorrow night, again, in my fantasy world. Because tomorrow is just another day.

Working 9 til Half 6

Instead of working til 9 til 5 like a normal day, I worked til half 6, and on a Saturday. Shows how much dedication I had today. There was no time for daydreaming, I had to be fully focused on getting stock out and serving customers. So at the end of the day I can't wait to get home and be in my fantasy world. So after tea later, going back to my room, door closed, music loud and on my sofabed. Just like old times. 

I will probably be listening to the lostprophets tonight. The Song, For he's a jolly good felon, is just my song for when I am in my fantasy world. 

We take to get along,
we’re holding on, we’re holding on,
and all these estates we’re on,
everyone‘s singing!

My favourite part of the song. I sing along to it everytime. And then it goes on to my next part. 

all the police are wrong,
so we’re still singing.
7 days a week, patrolling all these streets.
I try to stop, but I can’t help it.
I know you call me weak, my future is oblique.
I take to get along, cause I still need it.  

Oh the irony for my occasion. The police are wrong, while in my world thinking I can be above the law if I want to be. Then I snap into reality later and laugh about it. And then 7 days a week partrolling the streets. That part quite true. Now I am back to my old ways again, wake up, uni - or work - home, family time, eat, fantasy life, then sleep. The cycle goes on. 

Back in Black

After reading posts from 2 years ago I have decided to go back to my old blog on my maladaptive daydreaming life. It's not that bad after getting used to it, its the way I live and couldn't imagine life without it. It's how I get by and feel a better person. So I feel this is the most appropiate song for this time. 

Back in black
I hit the sack
I've been too long I'm glad to be back
Yes, I'm let loose
From the noose
That's kept me hanging about
I've been looking at the sky
'Cause it's gettin' me high
Forget the hearse 'cause I never die
I got nine lives
Cat's eyes
Abusin' every one of them and running wild


The first verse from AC/DC's back in black, and I am listening to it right now, and is making me feel really good. On a night I would usually type into microsoft word what is happening in another world in my head, but however, I am taking a break from it tonight. I was out last night socialising, drinking, and being in the real world. Rock night out, my favourite night out ever. My favourite songs and I was singing along to them with my friends, made me feel great. So instead I will wash my hair, and then go on the PS2 and play fifa, and early to bed and up at 7 for work. 

Tomorrow night, my maladaptive daydreaming will commence. It's a good job I've got work and uni to stop me from daydreaming for a while and to be in the real world. I see my MD as a side hobby, something to do at night to cheer me up and feel a better person. It's somewhere where I'm not ignored and I'm the boss. I'm not going to change from this for a while now. Things are great the way they are.